And I Miss Him So.

No one goes into long distance thinking it's going to be easy, you go into it thinking that you love each other and you'll make it work. It's hard for all the obvious reasons but it's hardest because you're not an active part of your partner's life anymore. Things that happen to them aren't happening to you and vice versa.

Then come the misunderstandings because you're communicating via text, chat, email and more infrequently skype/phone. The barriers of all those forms of communication are huge when you're trying to connect in a real way, because all of those methods have a falseness to them.

In the end it's hard but worth it, the moment when I get to see him and be in his arms again will make it all worth it.

I miss him.

Just Look At Me, Writing For The Web

I'm supposed to start a writing journal for my 'Writing For The Web' paper I'm doing and post the pages on the forum but I'm much more comfortable posting on here instead. That way I have a lasting copy as well - hopefully I'll be able to see my style develop and grow. I feel like when I write I just type my inner monologue, which in some ways is good but perhaps a little confusing to any readers. Ever since I was little my drawing has been labelled "expressive" (aka messy, showing little patience) and my writing "chatty". Perhaps because I am naturally both wildly emotional (expressive) and noisy (chatty). I hope that as I've gotten older that some sort of technique and skill was also added to the mix but maybe that's one of the reasons I'm doing this paper?

Anywho, I'm supposed to finish a list...

- Using your knowledge of the Web so far, use your writer's journal to record five ways in which writing for the Web is different from writing for print.

1. Web writing has to be more concise, due to the lack of patience in most readers on the Net.

2. There are more gramatical errors on the net, I think the 'click and you're published' contributes to that, along with fewer editors.

3. There is more freedom in Web writing, the styles can be incredibly informal, unlike printed writing where there are rules for everything.

4. Web writing is a changeable median unlike writing for print so it can be updated to keep it constantly relevant.

5. Translating Web writing takes two seconds, and so is more accessible to many different types of people.

- Which sites are easy to read and which sites are difficult? Why?

I think Blogs and most Newspaper sites are relatively easy to read because each post/article tends to be read in a few minutes and quite often collaborates with images or video to keep the reader interested. Although, I think this particular post might be a bit too long...

- What is the most exciting, interactive site that you can find? Why is it such fun?

I'm not sure whether I'd use the term "exciting" and it probably just goes to show how lame I've become but 'Facebook' would probably have to be the most interactive site I can find, or even 'Wikipedia'. Obviously because most of the content is written by the readers, by people you know and by yourself. This makes it a personal experience to each user and is one of the reasons those sites are so incredibly popular.

- What is the most boring site you can find? Why is it so boring?

I'd say the most boring site I can find is this one, it's boring because it is about someone I don't know, written about something I know nothing about and don't really want to know anything about. I'd say that the boring sites are very subjective to each person, it depends on your interests, networks and how long your attention span is for reading.

Right, now that that's done I shall get some shut eye and post it on my Journal Forum.

Don't Let The Bed Bugs Bite!

Today was really hard - those days where everything seems like a massive effort. There are these really simple things that I am looking forward to; having a job, having a bedroom and having freedom. Believe me, you take those things for granted and when I have them back, so will I.

I'm so lucky to have a few really amazing friends to keep me on track, my sister has been a lifesaver - without her I couldn't have gotten away from the chaos. In so many ways I feel lucky and in so many ways I don't but I guess that's just how life happens, we have a lot of great shit and a bunch of shit, shit.

And on that note I bid you sweet dreams.

Not Eating Is Strange

Everything that could've happened has happened in the last year or so. I am fully entitled to a break, but life doesn't seem to be getting the message. Gr.

Lemons and lemonade etc etc. So I'm sitting here drinking copious amounts of 'Poweraid' blueness because Nina said if that was all I was going to drink then it'd make sense to buy the powder stuff that creates eight glorious litres. Not eating is strange, it makes the day role into one a bit with no parts to break it up at all. So I'm sick and drinking blue, working on a farmer's website, reading through my course's first segment a week early and reviving a mostly dead blog.

I'm in Melbourne which feels a little surreal except that the ground keeps staying mostly still which isn't a reality I've been used to for long. I'm full of different emotions being here, I miss my Trin and Hayden but I am also really happy that their life is getting better over in Timaru whilst I attempt to relax/earn some monies over here. I Skype with Trin and she asks me to come back which is more than hard but I realise she is three and doesn't understand that life is going to be better in the long run because I'm here. I think it'll just be till November, things aren't exactly planned but I think five months is long enough to find yourself and make sure it sticks this time.

I'm not a super fan of planning, planning too far ahead always just lands me in trouble. So for now I'm concentrating on trying to find a job, then a room and enjoy myself while I'm here. Simple is good.